Ok transactions are doing fine and my impending P/L shows that I am back in break-even after this horrible drawdown of 5 percent. But FEAR won't let me off, its telling me to close my rankings. I have to mention here that while live-trading, I have already had two moments where my positions at which initially doing good only to wind up in without after some time. This makes it tempting to close my rankings at this time! But while writing this passage, my trading egy comes in my mind and tells me you don't need to win in order to produce GOOD TRADES. I would like to make good trades rather than lucky trades. I will trade my egy come hell or higher water.
However I must admit that I am happy. So emotions are still there and I don't understand how to get rid of them. How can I cope with my emotions? I don't want to become happy when winning and I don't want to get angry when loosing. I would like to call myself a trader: no emotions, pure mechanisms.