Just keep you up2date if anyone is interested:
thanks all for the replies and for inviting me to keep going. I am working on my new glossy workstation (though I need to buy another screen as soon as I can afford it ), and its simply fantastic. I have discovered that simulator trading doesnt work with me personally, I just cant work. I possess some troubles with it, dont even know why. but that doesnt matter.
I would have never thought it, but I am trading in the evening after work now. Cuts on societal life a lot but thats a price...